Today, My Life Begins

 Day 0


I decided to try lodging my application again. A lot of people may have been praying that I won't make it in life just to prove to themselves that they were right and I was wrong. and that they are in a better place than I am. BUT I am hoping that my God will prove that He got me. I am ever sorry for thinking I was alone in this world. I may have been so overwhelmed to remember  that I have Him.  He gave me a chance to still start again.


I know it is never greener on the other side of the fence. It is a battle field out there but I can't complain. I get to have a different life, experience a different culture. I will miss the beautiful sunsets at the boulevard but I will somehow get a different sunrise and a different perspective.  


I will miss our island and what it can offer. It was a good 9 years and I believe I have something to look back in delight when I will miss the warmth of the island. I am ever grateful. He may have wanted me to remember the feeling of being here. But I know it wont be enough. I am happy here but I deserve a life that I chose. A life that will just let me be.






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