thepsychologyofher

Day 1  I am praying that all of my deliverables will be delivered. I am praying that all of my debts be paid this June 2024. Thank you , Lord for giving me a chance to work on my AirBnB. Thank you, Lord, for my online job.  Thank you, Lord for making me delineate a life of privacy even if I am in social media.

 Day 0 I decided to try lodging my application again. A lot of people may have been praying that I won't make it in life just to prove to themselves that they were right and I was wrong. and that they are in a better place than I am. BUT I am hoping that my God will prove that He got me. I am ever sorry for thinking I was alone in this world. I may have been so overwhelmed to remember  that I have Him.  He gave me a chance to still start again. I know it is never greener on the other side of the fence. It is a battle field out there but I can't complain. I get to have a different life, experience a different culture. I will miss the beautiful sunsets at the boulevard but I will somehow get a different sunrise and a different perspective.   I will miss our island and what it can offer. It was a good 9 years and I believe I have something to look back in delight when I will miss the warmth of the island. I am ever grateful. He may have wanted me to remember the fe...

 In another life, I guess I won't work in such a way that I would expect life to be better. Because it isn't getting any better.  In another life, I won't work hard to be at the top of the class because it won't get me far either. In another life, I won't live near my mom. It looks fancy looking at other people but it wont really work for me and mine. In another life, I won't listen to people about what they tried to impose on me. I know my family dynaics better than anyone else and they are speaking from experience so why would I listen to them Where did that get me? In another life, I will  exhaust all means of getting away as far as possible and I will not go back. Life with them sucks. What I realized when I was in high school is my reality and it doesn't get any better. I am just a means to an end for them and I am also not getting any support as I expected .  Nobody's really got my back. I only have me to pick myself up whenever I fall down. My cla...